Friday, July 18, 2025

Smoke and Shadows: A Seattle Noir Romance in 1945

 


The Smoke of Autumn

It was a wet and windy night in Seattle, the kind that makes you want to crawl into a bottle and forget the world. Autumn had draped the city in a shroud of fog and falling leaves, the streets slick with rain that never seemed to stop. I leaned back in my chair, the dim light of my office at the Seattle Times casting shadows across the clutter on my desk—empty coffee cups, crumpled notes, an ashtray overflowing with cigarette butts. My name’s Jack Sullivan, and I’m a reporter. Not the glamorous kind you see in the movies, but the kind who digs through the muck to find a story. Lately, the muck had been piling up, just like the bills.

The war had ended a few months back, in August of ’45, and Seattle was still shaking off the weight of it. Soldiers were trickling home, shipyards were slowing down, and the city buzzed with a strange mix of relief and restlessness. I’d seen my share of it all—three years as a war correspondent, dodging bullets in Europe, watching friends die in the mud. I came back jaded, a little harder than I’d left, and threw myself into work to keep the ghosts at bay. That night, as I stared out at the gray skyline, the door swung open, and my editor, Frank Hensley, stormed in.

“Sullivan,” he barked, tossing a file onto my desk. “Got a story for you. Councilman Henry Walsh has gone missing. Last seen a week ago. Rumor has it he was mixed up in something dirty. I want you to find out what.”

I flicked my cigarette, ash tumbling into the tray. “Walsh, huh? The golden boy of city hall? What’s the angle?”

“That’s for you to figure out,” Frank said, jabbing a finger at me. “Start digging.”

I nodded, exhaling a plume of smoke. “Alright, Frank. I’ll see what I can turn up.”

The Trail Begins

The next day, I hit the streets. Seattle in autumn was a moody dame—rain drumming on my fedora, fog curling around the brick buildings like cigarette smoke. I started at city hall, where Walsh’s colleagues fed me the usual line: he was a stand-up guy, no enemies, no scandals. Their smiles were too tight, their eyes too shifty. I could smell a rat a mile off.

Walsh’s wife was next, a nervous woman in a manicured house overlooking Lake Washington. She twisted a handkerchief in her hands, more worried about her bridge club than her missing husband. “Henry was fine,” she insisted. “Just busy with work.” I left with nothing but a headache.

The breakthrough came later, at a dive bar near the docks. Mickey, an old informant with a limp and a whiskey-soaked voice, slid into the booth across from me. “Heard you’re lookin’ for Walsh,” he muttered, glancing over his shoulder. “Word is, he was a regular at the Blue Note. That jazz joint downtown. Might wanna poke around.”

I slipped him a few bucks and headed out into the drizzle. The Blue Note nightclub—it rang a bell. A place where high society rubbed elbows with the underworld, all under the cover of jazz and gin. If Walsh had been there, it wasn’t for the music.

Into the Blue Note

That night, I traded my trench coat for a suit and stepped into the Blue Note. The air was thick with cigarette smoke, the kind that clings to your skin. A jazz band wailed in the corner—saxophone weaving through the murmur of voices, the clink of glasses. Dim lights glinted off polished tables, casting the room in a haze of amber and shadow. I slid onto a barstool, ordered a whiskey, and scanned the crowd. Businessmen in tailored suits, dames in glittering dresses, a few rough types who didn’t belong. Then she took the stage.

Evelyn Moore. She stepped into the spotlight, a vision in a red dress that hugged her like a second skin. Her hair was dark, cascading over one shoulder, and her voice—God, her voice—was like honey and smoke, wrapping around me, pulling me in. She sang “Stormy Weather,” each note dripping with melancholy, and for a moment, I forgot why I was there. The war, the story, the rain—all of it faded. There was just her.

When the song ended, the room erupted in applause. I downed my drink and made my move, catching her near the bar. “Nice set, Miss Moore,” I said, lighting a cigarette.

She turned, her green eyes cool and guarded. “Thanks. But I don’t talk to reporters.”

“How’d you know I’m a reporter?”

“You’ve got that look,” she said, brushing past me. “Curious and broke.”

I smirked. She wasn’t wrong. But I wasn’t giving up that easily.

Shadows and Smokes

I went back to the Blue Note night after night, blending into the crowd, picking up scraps. I spotted Tony Rizzo, the club’s owner—a slick, dangerous type with a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. I recognized a known smuggler nursing a drink in the corner. Something was rotten here, and Walsh had been in the thick of it.

One rainy evening, I stepped outside for a smoke and saw Evelyn in the alley, arguing with a hulking figure. His voice was low, threatening. I flicked my cigarette into a puddle and strode over. “Everything alright, miss?”

The man glared at me, then slunk off into the fog. Evelyn shivered, wrapping her arms around herself. “Thanks,” she muttered.

I pulled out my pack of Lucky Strikes, offered her one. She took it, her fingers trembling as I lit it for her. We stood under the awning, rain tapping around us, smoke curling between us. “You know something about Walsh, don’t you?” I asked.

She took a long drag, staring at the ground. “I can’t talk about it.”

“I’m trying to help,” I said, stepping closer. “Whatever it is, I can protect you.”

Her eyes met mine, searching. “Maybe,” she whispered. “But it’s dangerous.”

“I’ve handled dangerous before.”

She almost smiled. Almost.

Digging Deeper

The pieces started coming together. Walsh had been neck-deep in a smuggling ring—booze, black-market goods, maybe even weapons—funneled through Seattle’s docks. The war’s end had shifted the game, and he’d wanted out. The Blue Note was the hub, a place where deals were sealed over martinis and jazz. Evelyn had been close to him—too close, maybe. A mistress? A confidante? I couldn’t tell yet.

I tailed Rizzo, talked to a cop buddy who owed me a favor, found a matchbook from the Blue Note in Walsh’s abandoned office. Every lead pointed back to Evelyn. One night, I confronted her outside the club. “You were Walsh’s girl, weren’t you?”

She flinched. “It wasn’t like that. He was kind to me, that’s all.”

“Then why’s Rizzo watching you like a hawk?”

She looked away, voice barely audible. “Because I saw something I shouldn’t have.”

Before I could press her, two goons jumped me. Fists flew, and I took a beating—cracked ribs, a black eye—but I gave as good as I got. They left me in the gutter with a warning: “Drop the story, Sullivan, or you’re next.” I spat blood and grinned. They’d just confirmed I was onto something big.

Evelyn had disappeared when those goons got the jump on me. I nursed my aching ribs and staggered home. 

Love in the Rain

I showed up at Evelyn’s apartment the next day, bruised but stubborn. She let me in, her face pale. “They’re after me too,” she said, pouring me a coffee with shaky hands. “I saw them kill Walsh. He wanted out, and they shot him. Dumped his body in the Sound.”

“Why didn’t you go to the police?”

“They’re in on it,” she said. “I didn’t know who to trust.”

I set the coffee down, met her gaze. “Trust me.”

She nodded, and something shifted between us. Over the next few days, we grew closer. I took her for a walk in Volunteer Park, the leaves crunching underfoot, the air crisp. She told me about her small-town roots, her dreams of singing on bigger stages, how Walsh had promised to help before it all went sour. I opened up too—about the war, the friends I’d lost, the cynicism that had settled in my bones. One night, outside the club, I pulled her close under a streetlamp, the fog swirling around us. Our lips met, tentative at first, then hungry. For the first time in years, I felt alive.

The Reckoning

I worked fast, gathering evidence—photos of Rizzo with known crooks, a ledger I swiped from the club’s back room. But they were onto me. One night, Evelyn didn’t show for her set. A note arrived at my office: Pier 54, midnight. Come alone, or she’s dead.

I went, knowing it was a trap. At the docks, the rain poured, the Sound lapping at the pilings. Rizzo’s men were waiting, Evelyn bound and gagged beside them. “You should’ve listened, Sullivan,” Rizzo sneered, drawing a gun.

I dove behind a crate as bullets sparked off the wood. My own revolver was in my hand, a relic from the war. I returned fire, picking them off one by one—Rizzo took a slug to the shoulder, another goon went down screaming. I untied Evelyn, her eyes wide with fear and gratitude. “Let’s go,” I said, pulling her into the night.

With the evidence, the police had to act. The smuggling ring collapsed, corrupt cops included. My story hit the front page: “Councilman’s Murder Exposes Seattle Underworld.” I left Evelyn’s name out, kept her safe.

A New Dawn

A week later, we stood outside the Blue Note, the rain finally easing. The club was shuttered, the jazz silenced, but the city hummed with possibility. Evelyn slipped her hand into mine. “What now, Jack?”

I lit a cigarette, passed it to her, our fingers brushing. “Now we start over. Together.”

As the last leaves fell, I knew she was my redemption, my reason to keep going. The war was over, the story was done—but ours was just beginning.



Thursday, August 1, 2024

Sweet Kiss of Merlot

 


A Short Story of First Love and Romance

Originally published over at Vocal Media for a Short Story Competition with a bottle of Wine being the theme.

A Short Story of First Love and Romance

Originally published over at Vocal Media for a Short Story Competition with a bottle of Wine being the theme.

“It’s so lovely to meet you!” Virginia Thomas voice sung with sweet softness. He immediately swooned over her as his caramel eyes drank her in. Soft raven curls bounced and cascaded over slender shoulders. Her dark blue eyes pierced the depths of his soul. She kept herself in good shape. She clutched a dainty handbag in her slender fingers. She appeared quite innocent. There ought to be a law against how her curves suffocated against the fabric of her cocktail dress. She was more than what Tristan Raymond expected of a woman.

“Pleasure meeting you,” He offered a soft smile, “shall we?” He motioned for her to walk ahead as he held open the door. A quaint and cozy wine bar overlooked Lake Union in Seattle. Early Summer had fallen upon the Pacific Northwest. And already the early evening felt warm and inviting. Jazz lift and fell over the soft din of conversation and clanking of dishware. Tristan followed close behind, eyes never parting from taking in all her beauty. God was quite an artist with her.

The hostess sparkled and smiled as the couple approach.

“Reservation for Tristan,” He spoke with confidence while he flashed a charming smile. The hostess appeared to blush before turning on her heels and escorted the two to a quiet table. Both settled down and thanked the hostess.

“I’ve never been here,” Virginia chuckled as she gazed at him for a moment. Her eyes lingering on his.

“You’ll love it here. Good food and good wine…” he paused a moment and leaned a bit forward, “unless you are not much of a wine drinker.”

She leaned forward as well, “Wine, whiskey, depends on the setting.” She leaned back and a more mysterious smile etched her full pouty lips. Both picked up the menu’s and took a moment of silence to make their selection.

The waiter approached and within moments the two placed their respective orders. Tristan took a momentary reprieve and looked out the window. His eye caught something in the distance before he glanced at his own faint reflection. Virginia followed his gaze out of curiosity.

“I have to admit that I was a bit anxious…” He turned his gaze back to her. She sat with a gracious pose. Her fingers interlocked and her chin rested upon them. Tristan took a drink from the water. He felt his throat parched with thirst. “Not so anxious now.”

Virginia gazed with intriguing affection and spoke in hushed tones. “I’ve felt nervous meeting you as well.” Both looked at each other with calm feelings. Soon their awkward romantic interlude was politely interrupted as the waiter brought over their entrees. He smiled and nodded.

“Anything else?” He was polite, slender, and quite gentle in his demeanor.

“Not at all, thank you,” Tristan thanked the young man with a gentleman like nod. Virginia smiled and kept her gaze on him before turning to the waiter.

“I am good here thanks,” she offered a gracious smile. The waiter left their table and made his rounds to other patrons. She looked delighted and her emotions blushed like a sweet precious peach.

Both enjoyed their meals and held quiet conversations. She found herself falling in love with his intellect. A gentle knight with a down-to-earth courage. His stories of heroic chivalry and gestures. she even giggled at the story of how he helped steady an old lady struggling at a grocery store.

The waiter came and cleared their plates. "Anything else," Tristan looked over Virginia as she bit down on the corner of her lower lip.

"What is the best Merlot you have?"

The waiter paused a moment and searched. "I recommend a bottle of 2012 Northstar Winery Premier Merlot from Columbia Valley." Tristan glanced over to Virginia and with a nod of approval, he ordered the $85.00 bottle. The young man disappeared a moment and then returned with two wine glasses, wine key, and the merlot. After settling the glasses onto the table, he presented the bottle to Tristan. Only a gold minimalist label adorned the dark bottle.

"2012 Northstar Winery Premier Merlot," The waiter waited for approval.

Tristan smiled and nodded.

Again, with expert precision, the waiter removed the foil and pulled the cork. He placed the wet side up on the table in front of Tristan. A small amount of wine splashed into the glass.

He kept his eyes locked on the waiter, he looked over the color, swirled the liquid, and smelled the fragrance. Aromatic flavorful tones of cocoa, cherry, and raspberry felt inviting and calming. The waiter smiled. He first poured Virginia a glass and then topped off Tristan's. With careful gentleness, he placed the bottle onto the table.

"A toast." Tristan raised his glass and winked. Virginia smiled and lifted her glass as well. "To a nice romantic first date with a beautiful woman any artist ought to be envious of." both took a small drink and enjoyed the warmth of the wine.

Jazz continued to play, and Tristan stood. He stretched out a strong hand, "care to dance?" She smiled, placed her hand in his. He guided her across the dance floor as if she was in a dream. Tristan rested his hand along the small of her back. Her hand draped over his shoulder and their free hands met. Fingers interlocked. Together, they felt the music as their feet moved in perfect sync. Virginia felt relaxed as apprehension drained from her. He had ditched the suit jacket and loosened the tie. He also loosened the top button of his lavender shirt. His eyes were a light hazel and irresistible.

Their gaze locked and yet their bodies swayed in slow synchronicity. Every moment, every angle seemed natural. Nothing forced as she felt herself floating away.

Tristan squeezed her hand with tenderness. His charming smile showed he needed to say nothing else. Her heart, whole being, was now his and his alone. He turned with elegant style, his body in tuned to hers and the music. He was someone she did not want to underestimate. She did not care at that moment. Was it because she was already falling in love with him? A man she hardly knew. The warmth between them grew more powerful. She felt his heartbeat with steadiness against her chest. She rested her body against his. Melting into him.

A perfect dance. Her breath taken away and her mind drunk with infatuation. She pulled away from him a moment and had lost herself in those eyes of his. Their lips drew to one another like magnets. Crashing like gentle waves upon one another.

A sweet kiss of merlot upon their lips. Tongues dancing, mimicking their slow movements. Surge of passion rising, ebbing, and flowing. They did not concern themselves with those dancing around them.

He felt her warm and inviting. Soft moans bubbled from her throat as her fingertips grazed along the nape of his neck. She pressed her body further into his. Eternity seemed to pass as time appeared to stop.

Passion subsided and she pulled away to catch her breath. "I...I ... I love you," Her soft voice quivered. Her pouty lips pinched. Tristan drew the tip of his tongue across his lips. Still tasting the moistness and warmth of hers.

Tristan regarded her soft eyes. Sparkling like sapphires. "I definitely feel the same way." He spoke with hushed tones.

Gentle rainfall began to descend from the clouds. A young woman stood next to him. He smiled and wiped away the tears. Tristan reached out and touched the coffin of his beloved.

"My sweet Merlot," He spoke with softness.

"Dad..." the sweet voice of his daughter broke his moment of silence. "You ready?" She asked, arm around him in comfort. "I already miss her too." She rested her head against her aging father.

Tristan placed a small bouquet of roses onto the casket and looked heavenward. "My sweet Merlot," he mumbled and watched as the casket lowered into the ground.

He turned and walked in silence. Daughter beside him. Tristan Raymond thought about that first date and how Virginia Thomas looked. The taste of merlot wine and the sweet tender kiss haunted his aged lips.

Wednesday, July 31, 2024

Rising from Ashes: A Hero's Tale of Triumph and Resilience

 


The Phoenix's Journey

Through trials and tribulations, I forged my path,
Betrayed by those I trusted, yet I rose,
A hero born from ashes of despair,
Each setback, disappointment only fuel
To conquer demons lurking deep within.

Depression's shadow tried to cloud my light,
But hope persisted, guiding me through night.
Addiction's chains once held me in their grasp,
Yet I broke free, became a warrior true.

Seasoned by the battles fought and won,
I stand here now, a symbol of the sun.
Aging gracefully, with wisdom as my guide,
Embracing adulthood with open arms.

In adversity's embrace, I found my strength,
Compassion for myself through tears and pain.
Confidence now blooms where doubt once reigned,
An appreciation for the journey gained.

To be yourself in world that asks conformity,
Is an act of bravery, a noble plea.
The phoenix rises, soaring high above,
A tale of allegory, of endless love.

© Timothy R. Berman - All Rights Reserved, including AI generated images

Friday, November 27, 2020

My Question - My Being

 


Back in 2004, my father was released from Harborview Medical Center in Seattle, Washington. A few months prior to this, he was involved in a serious auto accident outside of Yelm, Washington. He had broken the steering wheel of his small 1980's something pickup truck with his chest. Drove the steering column through the floorboard of the pickup. He had spent two months in a drug induced coma for his lungs to heal. I spent those two months living at the hospital. Upon his release, my family had made the decision to leave me in Seattle. It was January 2004 and was the most isolating and depressive experience in my life.

No place to lay my head. I worked and walked the streets of Downtown. Mainly stayed awake for about 7-days. I was finally able to move into the Aloha Inn Transitional housing program. There, I wrote this personal essay as a way to come to terms with what I have dealt with. Not just during that time in my life. A reflection of what I've felt and gone through most of my life.

I kept it close to read as a reminder. Over the years it had become lost (among other things). It was not until yesterday when I was going through a couple of boxes that I found this essay and spent time meditating upon it and reading those words I wrote over 16 years ago.

My Question - my being

A Personal essay of my bout with depression in 2004

Nothing!

Nothing, I silently replied. Then a thought. One simple thought that breached the empty field of my mind. Recalling an immortal phrase coined by one of history's most renowned play writer:

To be or not to be that is the question. This is what Shakespeare wrote.

My question - what is the answer?

Like the morning fog being burned off from the surface of a lake, the sun rises in magnificent splendor. The phrase fades with only emptiness in my mind. Nothing! I just want to scream, wandering in the dark alleys and shadows of my thoughts. They seemed to reach forth with cold bony fingers. Tugging to pull me into the suffocating darkness.

Nothing.

Nothing! I shout in echoing silence of my own thoughts.

No answer came. My voice reverberating off decaying walls of cinder blocks and mortar. Or, maybe it had come, and I was preoccupied with the emptiness that leaves me numb. The only thing left is a barren wasteland - much like the desert. Scorching heat beating against sandy dunes. Reminds me of waves on a motionless sea. Some dunes rising high, rolling into valleys with no substance of life. A mysterious beauty all its own. Winds blowing relentlessly, shifting sand back and forth. Reshaping dunes and valleys of the desert. Maybe they are not motionless waves after all. Maybe, there is some purpose to a desert.

Again, the phrase appears in my mind, lingering like an unwanted specter. To be or not to be that is the question. My soul groans and cries out - What is the answer? Only silence. The barren desert appears again. The warmth from the day lingers in the twilight hours. Long after the sun descended over the horizon. Only the moon glows against the velvet canopy of sky. Stars blinking in chorus for some cosmic audience. The desert wind becomes a cold talon. The desert's friend is loneliness.

Loneliness and nothing.

To be or not to be lonely; that is the question. Could this be the answer?

To be nothing or not to be nothing; that is the question. Could this be the answer?

I am something. I am not lonely. Not like the desert. The desert has no friends. Those who traverse it do so with caution, speed and are well prepared. To be lost in the desert is utter destruction. It's beauty drawing you in if you are not careful. I am something. Or am I?

There is still no answer. Only silence. Cold heartless silence chills me. A fatiguing recollection dances in my mind. A field of barren hostility. You were something! It chanted. You were not lonely. I push the thought back into the shadows of a decaying city that I seemed to wander through.

Another vision comes to view.

To be somebody, or not to be somebody; that is the question. I pause, dwelling on the perplexity it proposes. I am somebody. The phrase rises up from the depths of my depression. My heart and soul crying in unison from their prison. The bondage they wrestle against to be free. I am somebody! I cry out. The statement bouncing off the stillness of my mind. Silence laughed at me.

Are you? Silence comes with a different question. Shakespeare hovers over his grave. Are you somebody? The question presses against me. Suffocating me. Shakespeare holds a dark cloak against me.

Yes! I am somebody. I yelled, yet my voice muffled against the thick fabric.

Who? A different question. Shakespeare is silent. Asking me as the heavy cloak peels away from me. Chains bound me. The metal is cold as it constricts like a boa.

Who? I repeated the question.

Who are you? A momentary pause. If you are somebody, then who are you? Another question. It felt like a sword put to flames and then searing as it sliced through my flesh. Burning with a nauseating stench. Silence encroaches again. Cold brooding silence as the wound becomes a scar. A reminder.

To be or not to be that is the question. Shakespeare's ghost appears again. Chains no longer hold me captive. Cloak is no longer in his hands. He is dark with a red rose in one hand and a white rose in another. One for purity and the other for love.

What is the answer? I asked. A circular argument of reason. Once again, the desert floods the landscape of my mind. The stifling heat burning against my flesh; thirst parching my throat.

No answer came.

Nothing.

Nothing! I repeated. No one was there. A heavy sigh escaped my trembling lips.

No one? But you are someone. Were you not? The question settled upon me like a brooding cloud hanging over the land. Dark and full of anger. There was no answer that would come to my lips.

I am no one. I am nothing! I sighed heavily with resolve. The interrogation flogging me with leather tentacles. Striking and ripping my flesh. My body numbed and craving death.

I am nothing. I am no one! I yelled in pain. Shakespeare and the desert are vanquished from my thoughts.

Alone somewhere and yet nowhere at the same time. It was here that I felt the rain. A soft drizzle at first. My eyes open to a misty grey day. The drizzle giving way to a steady downpour.

You are someone. The unrepentant thought crossed my mind. The words roaring like thunder. Storms. The grey sky brightened in a series of electrified white over the city. Thunder roaring with each flash. A storm was brewing. Are there storms in the desert? I asked. There was no answer to my question.

The desert gave way to the sea. Rolling and motionless dunes of sand became liquid rising and falling in waves. The sea was breathing with white caps of fury. Each wave rising in anger and slapping against the ship. The crew long abandoned her. Tall white sails bulged against the gusts of wind.

Nothing.

The ship rose and crashed as the sea breached the railings and water rushing across the wooden deck. The vessel groaned and creaked with mournful cries. No one is manning the helm of the ship! I weakly protested. Lightening licked across the sky like an angry god. The iridescent flash contrasted against the velvet blackness. Illuminating brooding clouds that reached down and kissed the rising sea with deadly and poisonous contempt. Thunder roared its blood curdling battle cry.

You're somebody - to be or not to be that's your question!

Shakespeare's ghost stands at the bow of the ship.

I'm nothing! I'm no one! I cried out. Thunder clapped with anger. I'm now cowering in the corner of the ship. Like a scolded and abused child. Do you see me? Wide-eyed, scarred and naked? My knees pulled tightly too my chest. Arms hugging them.

Nothing. Loneliness gives way to fear and dread. Death's breath upon the nape of my neck. Whispering deadly and eternal dark secrets in my ear.

Storms. Remember the storms. The voice was no longer ominous. A soft breeze in the bowels of my heart. I remember. What about the storms? The question unfolded in my thoughts.

Storms. Remember the storms?

The question was persistent. My response silenced.

The ship and the dark sea disappearing, vanishing from my vision. Storms came a soft whisper. Again, the sky flashed and roared angrily. Yet, the sea subsiding and calming. Rain started falling from the pregnant clouds.

No longer was I on the ship or the sea. I found myself standing in a spacious field. The meadow stretched before me with green vegetation. Centered in the field was an ancient oak tree. It stood against the storm. Majestic and barren. I hear it growl in a low grumbling tone. It beckoned me closer.

My child, please come. I hear it calling.

To be or not to be...Shakespeare again. His spirit stood under the canopy of the oak tree. her branches swayed with the strong wind. Leaves fluttered like a million butterflies in whispered choral music. I found myself beneath the branches. The wind grew stronger, the rain fell heavier. Yet, I found peace and comfort. Dry and protected. I reached out in trepidation, wanting to touch the oak tree. The trunk aged and ancient. Scarred; thicker than I had seen any tree. Lightening reached down from the angry clouds like a whip, striking the majestic oak tree. The wood crackled and exploded. Echoing in the storm. Fire sparked and engulfed the tree. The rain kissed away the flames. Thunder shouting in anger and displeasure. Yet, I felt safe under the boughs of the oak tree.

Storms. The thought flashed in my mind. I remember. Storms make trees seek deeper roots I shouted out in joy.

To be or not to be that is the question. Shakespeare's spirit stood in front of me smiling.

To be or not to be that is my question. I thoughtfully smiled back at Shakespeare. His spirit vanishing. So also, the lonely oak tree. The field no longer captivated my thoughts. Even the barren desert no longer plagued me.

I found myself back on the ship. Her sails were tattered and torn. There were no more threatening waves. No more storms. There was a calm wind softly kissing against the sails.

Nothing.

Nothing. I muttered contently. Waves rose and fell like a woman's bosom when she breathed. A summer breeze carried sweet-tangy salt on her wings. Azure sky ostracized the dark evening. I was at the helm of the ship. Up there, on the horizon, do you see it? Shakespeare standing and smiling.

Answer the question. I thought. To be or not to be that is my question I paused, allowing the statement to warm my soul before answering. I am the captain of my own destiny - that's who I am, I am somebody. The answer became my beacon of light as I saw the lighthouse. Up on the coastal lands. The harbor beckoning me to return safely. I am finding my way safely home.